Roses

Coming to New Zealand, I was 100% committed to writing blogs about my time here. I wanted to write about everything I did, and all the new experiences I was undergoing. So the time came, and it felt like all the pieces to a puzzle I couldn't seem to figure out had fallen into place. Words to be written down for any sort of blog were lost in my mind, only to be replaced by happy thoughts. I was so immersed in the fact that I was finally excited to be awake. I couldn’t think about what to write about it, but I wasn't bothered or deterred by this so called 'writers block'. I put my blog aside and got caught up in life, and that was fine by me. Because of past experiences, I usually keep myself quite sheltered from the emotion called happiness, just because I know all too well that every rose has its thorn. This time it was different; this time I had let go of that fear of happiness, and was completely blinded by my new found joy for life. Unfortunately, some things don't change, and satisfaction in life always seems to be accompanied by a close friend... sorrow.

It is true, when people say when you're down that the only way to go is up, so is it also true that when you're feeling on top of the world, the only place to go is down? On my journey through this adventure we call life, I am constantly trying to find the answers to everything, and most of the time I find there is one apparent answer to a majority of the subjects I ponder. However, this isn't a very clear answer, nor does it fill the void that humans seem to find so satisfying. The answer: ignorance. In most situations that occur everyday, at school, work, with family, etc. being ignorant is not favorable. But what you need to realize, and what I have learned over the years, is that ignorance is bliss. Sometimes not knowing can save you from heartache, tears, and a lot of pain.

Not so long ago it hit me. I was enjoying life and everything seemed to be going so well, and that is when I got scared. Why was I happy? How long would it last? What was I to do when it was over? Questions liked these raced through my head as I was quickly on a downwards spiral. I relapsed and let the darkness take over my life once again. I was searching for answers I didn't need, and I had no one to blame but myself. All it takes is a few outside sources who want to see you fall, embedding infectious thoughts into your being, and the come down from the high becomes a demon with no remorse. But then I realized, I was still breathing, the world was still turning, and I had no reason to not enjoy the now. Life moves so quickly, no time needs to be spent on things that don't deserve your energy. I stopped looking for all the answers, and as cliche as it sounds, I made myself stop and smell the roses. Realizing that ignorance truly is bliss a lot of the time has made my life much better. I stopped questioning, and started embracing the happiness that I deserved.

Now I want to make it clear that there is no certain way you should live your life, no matter what anyone says. We are only on this earth for one lifetime, and it is not suppose to be spent in darkness and sorrow. Do not fret when things seem strung out, or don't seem to be going your way. Don't look to deeply into everything, and no matter what, do not let anyone make you feel ashamed for doing things that make you happy. Each individual on this planet is different, and the close minded people who think there is a pre-set agenda for you are wrong. Do what you love to do, do what makes your heart happy, and life will take you right where you are suppose to be. Each day is a blessing, so welcome it with open arms and an open mind. I advise you all to start spending a little less time worrying about what others might think, and a little more time making yourself and your happiness priority number one. With that being said, make sure to spread love and kindness, as it will follow in return. Ignorance can truly be blissful when it allows for a clear mind making space for serenity, so do not fear what you don't know, and remember, even though every rose has its thorns, doesn't make it any less beautiful.

-Coffee With Demons, JG

10/30/16